So I Have Pneumonia, I'm Using My Time To Plan Vacation 2010

Well, I did to myself good this time - I went to my doctor after work. In a near panic he sent me for x-rays, I have pneumonia. Gee, and, I just didn't think things could get any better, now I get to stay home (I fought tooth and nail not to be admitted to a hospital) for the next week to two weeks to try to get healthy again.

The jerk had the nerve to send me flowers today. I refused them. I wonder if he realizes that I REALLY don't want anything more to do with him?!

So, what am I doing to entertain myself? Planning my next vacation of course! After thinking long and hard, I decided that next 4th of July I will be on a cruise. But, where? So many choices! Alaska has long been on my "bucket list" - I blame "The Love Boat", ever since I saw that episode of The Love Boat where they went to Alaska I wanted to go too. Then again, there are some really great cruises right out of the greater NYC area. Princess has a good one leaving on July 2, 2010 for 9 nights to Bermuda and the Caribbean. Then again, perhaps I will take my two weeks and take a cruise in Europe.

I have to tell you that it is my deepest hope that I am going with someone special and not just another vacation with my friends or family. Then again, a scenario like "Sleepless in Seattle" could be romantic... Think about it, meet on line (well ok she snail mailed him in the movie) but still the same concept, and, then picking a spot on the ship to finally rendezvous.

Yes guys, we girls, even at my age long for this type of romance. We also realize that most of you don't have a clue how to be romantic and that is why we get all bent out of shape when you just bring us flowers or send us a card for no reason. (I know girls, like that happens without some type of fight between you, right?) But, just imagine, out there, in cyber-space, perhaps there is that one guy who gets it.

The guy who is fit but doesn't live at the gym, who is good looking but isn't all about outward appearance, who has class, manners, oh hell - the whole package - afterall, I am daydreaming here. So why not go for everything? Yes, I want the impossible - are you out there??

I have a year to find out...

Yes I am fine, Yes I am ready to date someone else

I'm back at work today, I have an appointment with my doctor after work. I'm not feeling well at all but, I want to save the remainder of my sick days for the year since it's only July, and, I get a cold in October like clock-work.

The Spanish cheater has attempted to call no less than 2 dozen times, and, left half a dozen messages that he is sorry, that he simply gave in to the lust of the moment (and here's the best one - that he was longing to make love to me so badly, he gave in to his ex-girlfriend but pretended it was me the whole time.)

I checked my driver's license. Nope. I wan't born yesterday!

I have a lot to do today so this is a short entry. Bottom line - I am emotionally fine. And, yes, I am ready to meet someone new. To the person who emailed to ask if I might be interested in meeting him - send a photo, tell me about you, and, I will do the same. My email address is located on the upper right hand corner.

Yes, that goes for anyone else interested too. Emailing doesn't guarantee a date but it does guarantee a response.

Thanks

Que Sera Sera

Well, I have been home for one day, and, all I can say is "Que Sera Sera". I still can't cry or be mad or have any other emotion other than whatever will be, will be...

Strange? Perhaps, but, I've suffered deeper heartache than this in my past including having a true love commit suicide. I guess it's just all a matter of perspective. I guess somewhere deep down I knew it wasn't going work out - it's the only thing I can offer as an explanation as to why I'm not balling my eyes out right now.

As far as the guy the "other guy" (remember the one who I just wasn't into before and I let go just before flying off to Europe?) He's back and he still does not get it. I'm still just not into him, I doubt I will ever be into it, and, he continues to pursue me. I don't need this right now, but, still can't be mean or cruel to him.

Ok, I know, I know - I should consider myself extremely fortunate that I have a guy like that after me, especially since there are women out there who can't get a date with anyone. And, I should be grateful that I am lucky in the dating department that getting a date has never been a problem for me. However, it wouldn't be fair to me or the guy chasing me to lead him on and allow him to think he has a chance at a long term relationship with me. The chemistry just isn't there for me. I'm sorry if that sounds cruel and cold to some, but, if it isn't there, it isn't there. It's that simple.

Right now, all I want to do is get rid of this terrible cold. Get back to work and resume a more normal routine. I will continue to date when asked out, and, in the meantime, I will fall back on my friends as per usual in these cases.

At Heathrow Waiting to Fly to the USA

Well, here I am at Heathrow waiting for my flight home. This is NOT how this vacation was suppose to turn out. And to answer your question, yes, he has called over a dozen times, I didn't talk to him, but, he left messages pouring his heart out what a mistake it was and he wasn't sure why he did it. I'm not buying it.

In my 20s, heck, even in my 30s I would have been devastated by him cheating on me. I probably would have taken him back. However, I'm older, hopefully a bit wiser, and, I simply am not going to put up with this type of nonsense at this point in my life. I've been through far too much, and, I am certain someone better - more mature - is out there for me.

The only thing that has me really upset is my cold which is absolutely horrible. I thought about staying in London a few extra days to rest up, but, I'll feel better being in my own house, in my own bed.

I probably won't be posting tomorrow so I will wish those of you following this blog in the United States a Happy 4th of July. As for those in other countries, have a wonderful weekend. I'm off to get some soup or tea or something before boarding for my flight home starts.

PS - One bit of good news. He caught my cold! And, I hope he is feeling miserable complete with all the symptoms I've been suffering while he was out cheating on me!

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He is a cheat, I'm heading home and I still have a cold

I didn't think I would be blogging today, but, I'm actually writing from Barcelona Airport, waiting for a flight back to the States. While I was miserable for the past two days with one of the worst colds I've had in a while, guess who was out on dates with his ex-girlfriend? Oh yes, once again I have proven when it seems to good to be true, then it probably is too good to be true. So, I'm heading to London, and, getting a flight out in the morning.

Of course, I got that standard "it didn't mean anything" line, but, that's a little hard to believe when I walked in on them in a heavy lip lock and unclothed. Want to hear the dumbest thing of all? I don't know if it's because I'm doped up on cold medicine or what, but, I haven't cried, I didn't get mad, I'm just sort of - I don't know, perhaps, numb? Either that or deep down I just don't care, however, I don't think that was the case at all, I was truly falling in love with him.

I'm more upset that I'm flying again with a bad, bad cold which is now making it's way down to my chest which isn't good since I am prone to pneumonia when I get chest colds. So, I am going to go to London, get some more cold medicine, get dinner and get to sleep. Get on a plane tomorrow morning, go to my doctor to get something to knock this cold out of me. Probably cry at that point, and, once again begin my search for Mr. Maybe.

Any cute SINGLE guys in the NYC area who aren't cheats want to go out next weekend?

In Spain, with a cold and it's after midnight

I can't sleep. It's after midnight. I'm shivering (badly), I'm stuffed up, and, I am miserable. I insisted my love sleep in another room so he wouldn't get this cold, he's just getting over his but, I am miserable. Beyond miserable. Anyone want to keep me warm tonight so I don't reinfect my love?

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I'm really sick so I might not post for a day or two. Very, very bad cold this time - you name the symptom - I have it, worse than the one that I started out with. Not too close I'm contagious.